The $250 Haircut...More If You Include The Wine.

So now I have something in common with a certain former Presidential Candidate (actually this reference is to a mean spirited canard the man was subjected to), and as always...something in common with a certain past President. I'll explain...

I had $$$'s burning a hole in my pocket and my perv light was glowing hot and red. Why I didn't just hook up with my ATF "Jaymee" or even "Jenny" I don't know. Well actually I do. One of the benefits to me of the "hobby" (a euphemism for consorting with hookers as a well...hobby) is that there are so many items on the "menu". Beautiful women I see at the Meet and Greets, gals that advertise on the Escort review boards in my town...even on the ever-dangerous and notorious Craigslist "Erotic Services" (Hey...I got this nifty utility for Firefox that will automatically open Craigslist pictures...handy!).

Not that I'm NOT getting laid. My FWB is most generous and enthusiastic. I wish I were "into" her more. I'm sorry I'm not, and I'm not leading her on or anything (yeah right). Yes, there are times of discomfort for both of us...but the sex is pretty darn good. I do feel that I may be exhibiting some signs of the sex addiction.

Off Topic Joke:
Heard about the 12 Step Program for folks addicted to 12 Step Programs?
It's called On-an-On. (Yuk, Yuk)

Yeah...like THAT would be something new for me. You NAME the obsessive compulsive behavior (as long as it's time-wasting to self-destructive, natch...) and I've done it or am prone to it.

So FWB went back to her town and I had an itch for a Craigslist gal. Now I am a PICKY (you're rolling your eyes...STOP that!) Pooner. Not just ANY ol' Craigslist gal is good enough for your connoisseur correspondent...oh no. It had to be THAT girl that was REALLY hard to reach (maybe she was LE and busy booking her latest captures...who knows). So not getting what I really (thought I) wanted, I further succumbed to the urge and went on a board and after a few tries hooked up with a well reviewed young lady and got out to the incall.

She also cuts hair and I needed a trim. Starting to see how this feeble mind works? Gads.

I have had two not so great experiences out of the half-dozen or so different women I've seen. The first was mostly a hygeine problem with a little bit of lack-of-chemistry thrown in. Frankly...she needed to have taken a shower before hosting. No delicate way to say it...smelled like ass. Major turn off for providers I'm told, and a major turn-off to this client.

This young (mid/late twenty's) person was clean, a little hyper, a decent barber (I'm bald so I'm easy), enhanced (with a nipple piercing, nice!) and eager...but I could feel no wave to catch. Even with my "Vitamin C". I've had my challenges in that department before and my Uncles Pfizer and Lilly have pretty much solved that problem for me. Better living through chemistry, eh? Oh, but CHEMISTRY...like the boy/girl kind...has still got to be there...at least for me. Or at least the illusion. And "Toni" was no illusionist. She had been a hard-core party girl a few years earlier...I saw pictures and heard stories and would be a blast for the free-fucking cocksman I always envied...like I can be, sort of, now...but not that night with that girl that time. So I re-robed and left.

Thus...the $250.00 haircut...with a side of rue. Oh...and the Past President? I can't stop when my cock starts talking to me either.

Wow...I was really...

...down the last couple days. If I keep at this I'll prolly spill the beans more...but I read the BJ and TruSelf chronicles and all my "pals" that are going through their own trials and travails:



Mandy-I have SUCH a crush on her. (Just like in High School...do guys like me EVER learn...sheesh)





Nightside Jonny-I love Jonny...I relate so much to what he's going through...before and AFTER the current situation with Ms. Jonny. Besides...he wrahtes reel goooood.

Joe Flirt-There is probably only one other guy that's as sharp or sharper than Joe. Damn. SWMNBN REALLY picked the wrong guy to fuck with (P.S. I've got a GREAT Sinatra song to lay on you, man! I'll put it in a new post).

Oblivion-What can I say about the sweetest person in the blogosphere. She'll swear up and down she's not...but we all know that NONE of us will ever...EVER...be as downright nice and sweet as she is and besides she's a stone fox!

Ever wondered about this word:

protean

Main Entry:
pro·te·an Listen to the pronunciation of protean
Pronunciation:
\ˈprō-tē-ən, prō-ˈtē-\
Function:
adjective
Date:
1598

1 : of or resembling Proteus in having a varied nature or ability to assume different forms
2 : displaying great diversity or variety : versatile

Or THIS one:

prolific

Main Entry:
pro·lif·ic Listen to the pronunciation of prolific
Pronunciation:
\prə-ˈli-fik\
Function:
adjective
Etymology:
French prolifique, from Middle French, from Latin proles + Middle French -figue -fic
Date:
1650

1: producing young or fruit especially freely : fruitful
2: archaic : causing abundant growth, generation, or reproduction
3: marked by abundant inventiveness or productivity a prolific composer

Let's Compare and or Contrast how these terms pertain to THIS GUY, shall we?



Tom Paine

My favorite Renaissance Man. What a time Tom and His (truly) beloved "C" must have. Read them at Polyamorously Perverse.

THERE. I feel better.

And YOU guys...you are the ones that touch me and inspire me. Thanks to you and all the others I read!

My FWB is coming so we can fuck...and fuck and fuck and fuck.

She wants to get kinkier than spanks on ass and pussy and tits. That WILL be arranged. (And yes, Dear Hazel...the old Perv is still pervin'! LOL).

Hey!!! Good to be back. This is a roots-core activity for me...more like this this year.

Then...I Found THIS!

What would I do without TruSelf (for the Name Thing)and BJ (for This)...

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Now I'm really messed up! "As If-f-f-f-f..."

Wish I Felt Like This Today...

What (My RL Name) Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Emotions are weighing me down some...

I Wrote Somebody About...

...what I did on Halloween. I didn't tell them that while I was watching the "show" I was on a couch in front of the "demonstration" fingering the sweet pussy of my "date". I would give her sensitive bits a little "tap" now and then...and grab her hair and press my mouth on hers...then take her in my arms and tenderly brush her lips with my fingers, BOTH sets. She had a lovely little naughty nurses' outfit. With her being open and viewable and definitely getting excited we were probably a pretty good complement to the main event, which I tried to describe:

So “fire play”...I had heard of it but I sure hadn’t SEEN anything like it. I probably ought to back track a little here…
I have always...really as long as I can remember…had yearnings and longings that were different. Not “gay” or even “bi” (though I can say I’m kinda curious now) but different little things would excite me and when I found out about “self restraint” I tried it…not the kind I NEEDED…the kind I did to myself. Anyway…I ended up in a D/s situation a couple times....not full on but we’d play...a lot. I joined the “Sex Positive Social Club” as soon as I found out about it…that was 6-7 years ago. It’s taken me that long to kind of “grow into” what and who I am and what I am comfortable with. There’s lots of stuff I’d like to try, and things that I’m not interested in…maybe just not now(!?).
Aaaaanyway…this guy I had seen before drags a big table out into the “play” area. There is sort of a perimeter of “social” areas with the public “play” area in the middle. At least that’s how it was configured that night. The room can be set up many different ways. So the big table. Big enough for a person, and sure enough…a gal sat down on the table, removed her “wrap” and laid face down. After some prep the guy lit these things that looked a lot like vibraphone mallets…sticks with cloth or some kind of fibre ends. Now I’m guessing he was using alcohol of some kind and he was sort of “skipping” these burning mallet things on the gals skin. Playing lightly then working into more intensity staying long enough in one spot to create a sensation but not so long as to cause a burn. It LOOKED a lot like someone playing vibes. Certainly a spectacle.
I have seen lots of different things there and I’ve participated just a little. Thought about the men only night...hmmmm...what does a cock taste like?????...but so far I only play with girls. I just get lost in the experience. The “Secret Garden”...LOL...

Have Love? Will...

...travel.

I commented over at Joe Flirt's place about paying a "pro" for sex. There are "Escort Blogs" and "John Blogs" and some of the folks in my blog roll are escorts and johns or sex workers of some type. The comments in Joe's post though, were from folks who didn't have any kind of experience on either end. I may get flamed for my comment on Joe's blog and the preceding remark, but let's go ahead and talk about it for a minute, and have at me if you want.

I have a number of reasons why I want to see a paid sex worker:

1) Variety. I can see a lot of different women. Folks would not really believe the disparity of looks and body types and personalities. The women rarely look like Julia Roberts or Audrey Hepburn. They're more likely to look like your neighbor Susan...who wants to lose 20lbs., or your Aunt Helen who looks like, well...an aunt helen. Sure there are 20-something hardbody's as well. Like I said, diverse.

2) I can have sex when I want/need to have it. I stated that I am coming off a broken marriage. I have never been a great "womanizer", and I won't lie to someone to get them in bed and "break up" with them a week later...or just not call...or any of the "fifty" other ways we leave our lovers. Besides most "sane" women won't go near a recently split-up guy for at least a year. Can't say I blame 'em.

3) Improbable sexual experiences. Example: I had a three-some. THAT would probably never happen. One woman was a for real porn star. THAT would definitely never happen. Both were drop-dead gorgeous. Again...under normal circumstances...snow-ball's chance in hell. OK...indulgent and decadent to an extreme, and kinda expensive...and unbelievably fun. It blew me away!!! So sue me.

There's more that I want to blog about on the subject, and I will, but I have met and had experiences with some really interesting people. Most of the women, and especially the ones I am drawn to are really, really bright, some are very accomplished, many are working professionals whose or un or under-employment led them to this occupation and almost every one I've seen cares and enjoys what they do. I think I can tell THAT...(the faking thing, maybe not so much).

Having said all that...OK, OK...there IS a real layer of artificiality as well. I am NOT going to find a girlfriend...it's not an audition. Rarely does a gal find a guyfriend from her client list. It does happen with famously mixed results, mostly bad. But no matter what happens, how good the time is, how good the sex is, how well "connected" we get...I go home alone. No wondering whether I should call the next day...no sweet churning in the gut when I'm looking at the phone.

It's just sex. For hire.

Update...

I'm going to pre-emptively strike something here and toss out the "gender equity as it applies to pay for women" card. It's disgusting that smart, effective, talented women rarely earn as much as their male counterparts...or have the same employment opportunities. I'm just sayin'.

Damn It's...

...been a long time since I posted. There's a lot of folks that are posting slow these days. Maybe it's the summer, lots of things for us all to do, and let's face it...life is just busy. Really busy.

So yeah...I've been really busy. I was going over my schedule for one week, one week with a friend and he remarked that I seemed to be making myself insanely busy so that I didn't have to think aabout the pain I was going through.

True that, as they say.

I'm gonna have to cut some stuff loose and throttle back. There IS such a thing as too busy. Besides, I'm getting really tired. A lot of fatigue is from the upset and stress. S4O and I have exchanged pretty much "final" notes to each other and this chapter is over. Whether we reconcile sometime in the future...well never say never, right? Still I've been sad and pretty insane for the last month or so.

Breaking up really sucks.